Enchantment of aimless writing..

I started blogging here in December 2009. This was always supposed to be my private space where I would vent, and think aloud, and try to make sense of things. This was also supposed to be my writing gym. I was never a regular but I kept writing on and off. 2009 seems like a different epoch. It seems so distant. I was so different. I had just finished my university. I was trying to figure out what to make of my life- what to do with it. Civil Service looked like an obvious answer. In 2025 today, with 12 years into the service, what was an obvious answer has turned into a vexing question. Grateful for many good things along the way, nonetheless. Loving family and amazing children. Meanwhile, I have kept writing. Not here so regularly. But I have been journaling on and off. I also started another blog and wrote a few entries related to my experiences in the civil service. My current job has kept me really busy. I have been meeting one deadline after another and havnt had the leisure to write aimlessly, something I used to do in these pages and something I have always cherished so much. So- on this rare lazy Saturday morning - I chose to rediscover the enchantment of aimless writing. And to check in on my writing abilities, to ascertain the extent of atrophy in the age of AI assistance. But I think I am doing fine which is also because I have kept up my reading. Perhaps not as much or as frequently as I would have liked,  but just enough to not be totally lost. So, while I may have changed since 2009 and the pragmatic concerns of adulting have taken over, I do feel, and hope, that the basic essence of that idealistic spark still reside somewhere in the heart, and in the eyes.